Almost One Academic Year

I have almost taught for a year now. Today is a Monday and it was quite strange how the 1A and 3E classes were louder and more distracted than ever while 3B was better. I actually got their attention this lesson and had some of the most talkative and less cooperative students asking questions! It was a bit week having Pok and Lung asking questions.

I like 3B as long as interactiveness goes as compare to the more advanced 3E class. In 3B you have a few students with behavioural problems and some strange characters but they do care about learning and are probably more curious than their 3E counterparts. 3E is all academic. 3B wants to have a bit of fun.

Hong Kong Story

I was eating out with friends for hot pot today and a thought came to me.

I don't feel that Hong Kong is real. Often time it's this exterior thing that is hiding what's real within. I felt a bit phony. Maybe I am phony. It's like we are in deep shit but we are kind of pretending that everything is fine as long as we are still buying, shopping, earning money, eating, filling our lives with activities and etc.

It feels so hollow. I don't find it to be real living. I don't feel like I am living a real life. It feels like a pretend life. There is often a scheme which we are living under. Living under a lie.

I was talking with my friend and he was telling me how the mainland Beijing government is giving $1 billion HK to fight against the Democratic Party in Hong Kong. He also told me that the role of the Democratic Party is to slow down the process Hong Kong's mainlandization.

9 months

I feel like I am starting a new life but yet it is an old one. I started my first day as a English TA/History Teacher at Anglican TSK Secondary School at Wanchai. It's officially my first day but not my first day working at the school, I have been there the past week going to meeting.

The crazy thing is that Winnie who a childhood friend from my old Tai Po church works there as well. She has been very nice and introduced me to her friends and other colleagues who are quite awesome and nice. A very lively bunch of young girls and guy basically. They are mostly around 22-24. Okay, I feel old.

I thank God for this job and I know that it was given to me by God. The principal hired me right away and the English panel, Mary, is really nice to me. She's a mentor without being my official mentor. This school makes a point in developing staff. I like the principal and share his vision.

"Remember, always give your best. Never get discouraged. Never be petty. Always remember, others may hate you. But those who hate you don't win unless you hate them. And then you destroy yourself."
-Richard Nixon

I haven't been myself lately, at least I don't feel like I have been myself.

I feel a bit tire of caring for others really. I rather just have someone pamper me. I think she feels the same way too. Just freaking tire even before anything started. All wasted emotion and thinking but I bet she handles it better than I do. I haven't been able to function very well. I hate falling in love. Or maybe I am just sick of not being able to do much about it. Or my lack of courage.


I have to remind myself that it's not my fault that people are being divisive.

Long Time. I am currently in Hong Kong, and has been here for the past 5 months or so.

I don't think I am the same person 5 years ago in 2006 when I was here again. I am looking for job and things have changed. I think I am starting over.

Rough Cut

Feel a bit like being in Riverside except I will be walking home instead of driving.

There are things that you must say and do in that moment, and you lose it all if you don't. I learnt it the hard way.

But the thing is, you only know when they passed. The thing is, there is never a perfect moment, just the moment. Nobody never really know when is the best time.

Some people call it fate, I call it trial an error, or even just trying your luck, or hit the jackpot. If you miss enough, you should win the odd to hit eventually.

It's like a slot machine. You lose enough and stay at it, you should eventually win. Of course, there are some luck people out there who just win on their first few round or the first try. But that's not for everyone. Not everybody is as lucky.

I think for me, I just don't want to change. That's why I can commit. I don't want to change my life even though I am sick of it.

Finally Started

Finally started editing MJ and Dennis' wedding video. I started on Thursday but it was more like a half day, 5 hours maybe. It's almost 9pm now and I have only started log and capturing Wilson's first tape. There's 3-4 more tapes to go. I think I just have to come in the morning to get things done. I hope the editing process will take less time. It's actually a pretty big job. But at least it's not a piece of art.

Another thing is Sunny's proposal and the videos from the wedding. Ahh. SOo much and I still have to plan my master project. I haven't even got it started yet! Bummer!!!

I have been in a flunk lately. I wanted to be more efficient and plan things ahead and live a more fulfilling life and get to do things I enjoy. I am just no a go getter. I should maybe go to CBC fellowship hahahahha.

Logging takes soo much time.

Sometimes I wonder about fate and just the timing of things, and at times I would get ashamed of myself for missing opportunities.

Headache

Woke up with a slight headache that doesn't bother me from functioning. Finally made a step yesterday and growing a little nervous and told me a while to get to sleep. And I actually dreamed about playing football on the field in a big competition, probably because I was thinking of that while I was trying to sleep.

Had my first Vietnamese pork roll sandwich since California and it was really really good.