I came to DC very late last night and felt bad that Edwin had to stay up until 2 a.m to go to sleep because of my bus trouble.
It seems like everybody is kind of going through a transition. Edwin is moving to North Cal for his post-doc (yeah, there is such thing as that), Toby and his wife are expecting a baby in a few months, Felix just settling in Boston with his new job and Helen is also expecting a baby and going to school.
I ran out of underwear. Need to get some, it's too troublesome to wash them. I can't believe i ran out again.
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Monday, June 29, 2009
BoltBus
So now I am on the bus going from Boston to NYC. My trip is coming to an end and it's like it's just going to be downhill from here. I can't reach my auntie, uncle and cousin in the DC area but that's okay. Hopefully they would call in later. But the main thing is that I have been to NYC and DC already.
2 days is good enough for Boston although I didn't get to see everything but it was good enough. I think I will go back there. The coolest thing about Boston is that it's small and most of the sights are within walking distance.
My favourite is Chicago. There's just so much to go and see. I wish I had like 3 more days in Chicago and spend the weekend there. My cousin and his family actually didn't get much free time during the weekdays and I caught them during the wedding anniversary. Being with the Narr was really nice and fantastic.
I wanted to stay in Portland for another 2 days too and that I can spend July the 4th in Boston, New York or Chicago. They have great celebration and fireworks on the East really, whereas there is little more than nothing on the West, I guess we are just don't have that strong historical link.
It would be good to stay in NY for a night and than go drive down from NYC and visit all the sites and cities between NYC and DC. Wouldn't that be great?
But I have learned a lot at each of the places I went to. Learning from my hosts mostly, especially the Narrs. I actually have a lot of questions for them because it seems like they got it all pretty well.
I think people are funny. It's really weird. There's no one alike.
There is never enough time. Time is really what you make out of it. Limitation of time create urgency. Opportunities come and go, and we all have a long way to maturity.
Sometimes I am not sure if I made the right decision. I think a lot of things I do are somewhat impractical and hard to explain. I think it's my personality, sensitivity plus trying my best to make the best decision with God in mind. I think God's way is at times hard to explain, and even foolish and illogical to people, especially people with worldly minds. I think God makes people do unworldly things and for me-weird and strange stuff that I sometime question.
Life is an amazing journey. I don't want to miss a thing. But you do. You can't be everywhere at once.
2 days is good enough for Boston although I didn't get to see everything but it was good enough. I think I will go back there. The coolest thing about Boston is that it's small and most of the sights are within walking distance.
My favourite is Chicago. There's just so much to go and see. I wish I had like 3 more days in Chicago and spend the weekend there. My cousin and his family actually didn't get much free time during the weekdays and I caught them during the wedding anniversary. Being with the Narr was really nice and fantastic.
I wanted to stay in Portland for another 2 days too and that I can spend July the 4th in Boston, New York or Chicago. They have great celebration and fireworks on the East really, whereas there is little more than nothing on the West, I guess we are just don't have that strong historical link.
It would be good to stay in NY for a night and than go drive down from NYC and visit all the sites and cities between NYC and DC. Wouldn't that be great?
But I have learned a lot at each of the places I went to. Learning from my hosts mostly, especially the Narrs. I actually have a lot of questions for them because it seems like they got it all pretty well.
I think people are funny. It's really weird. There's no one alike.
There is never enough time. Time is really what you make out of it. Limitation of time create urgency. Opportunities come and go, and we all have a long way to maturity.
Sometimes I am not sure if I made the right decision. I think a lot of things I do are somewhat impractical and hard to explain. I think it's my personality, sensitivity plus trying my best to make the best decision with God in mind. I think God's way is at times hard to explain, and even foolish and illogical to people, especially people with worldly minds. I think God makes people do unworldly things and for me-weird and strange stuff that I sometime question.
Life is an amazing journey. I don't want to miss a thing. But you do. You can't be everywhere at once.
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
I don't think I am a person who is comfortable in being aggressive and to get what I want. I seems to be in a self-denial mode half the time. I don't know if it is the way I was reared or how I grew up, or just my shy nature, or this put other people before me attitude that I developed. It's probably a mix of all of them.
I didn't know it before but I am finding myself to be a more sentimental person that I previously thought myself to be. Am I being more sentimental now than before? Don't know, I feel like I am going through a second puberty. I think I am able to put myself more out there so I am more venerable.
Is that growth? Maybe. Definitely did some growing. Scriptures that I used to just skim through became meaningful and am able to understand more Scriptures and readings that I didn't understand are becoming relevant. But do i like it? I don't know. It's a two sided thing. Growth does not mean happiness. At least not yet. Maturity does not mean enjoyment. I find myself often on a different wavelength than others and it's a bit lonely. You get to see so much that others can't see and understand. You see through things but you are probably only the few in many who could.
You know what's better to do and it gets disappointing when you see some others doing otherwise. You wonder why you are so uptight yet you just can't let yourself go and play the same game because you know you are better than that. It does make you free in that it becomes nature to not do certain things, or have certain thoughts but in this world you might be the minority and not the norm, and people often misunderstand you for that.
I also don't like to be judged. Nobody does. And nobody is perfect so if someone really want to find fault in you, it's easy. We can all pick out a thousand things at fault on someone.
I am mixed. Part of me feel relieved, glad and thankful, but another part of me feel a burden, sense of lost... I am not quite sure what it is. Maybe it is love, or just part of it. Maybe it is fear as I take the next step, into the unknown.
I know part of what I have learned here but I am not sure why God's purpose for me to learn these things. How will He use me with these learned things? Can I connect the dots? Maybe later I will. What have I been avoiding? I want to just live and enjoy and be who I am meant to be.
I didn't know it before but I am finding myself to be a more sentimental person that I previously thought myself to be. Am I being more sentimental now than before? Don't know, I feel like I am going through a second puberty. I think I am able to put myself more out there so I am more venerable.
Is that growth? Maybe. Definitely did some growing. Scriptures that I used to just skim through became meaningful and am able to understand more Scriptures and readings that I didn't understand are becoming relevant. But do i like it? I don't know. It's a two sided thing. Growth does not mean happiness. At least not yet. Maturity does not mean enjoyment. I find myself often on a different wavelength than others and it's a bit lonely. You get to see so much that others can't see and understand. You see through things but you are probably only the few in many who could.
You know what's better to do and it gets disappointing when you see some others doing otherwise. You wonder why you are so uptight yet you just can't let yourself go and play the same game because you know you are better than that. It does make you free in that it becomes nature to not do certain things, or have certain thoughts but in this world you might be the minority and not the norm, and people often misunderstand you for that.
I also don't like to be judged. Nobody does. And nobody is perfect so if someone really want to find fault in you, it's easy. We can all pick out a thousand things at fault on someone.
I am mixed. Part of me feel relieved, glad and thankful, but another part of me feel a burden, sense of lost... I am not quite sure what it is. Maybe it is love, or just part of it. Maybe it is fear as I take the next step, into the unknown.
I know part of what I have learned here but I am not sure why God's purpose for me to learn these things. How will He use me with these learned things? Can I connect the dots? Maybe later I will. What have I been avoiding? I want to just live and enjoy and be who I am meant to be.
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