i can't believe

i can't believe my last sunday at Tin Chuen might be one of the busiest. well, it's the weekend.

On Saturday, there's basketball which isn't really included but it will take a physical toll on me. Then get drinks from Shirley, then BB, Saturday service and small group. fantastic.

Sunday. Children worship then taking care of all kids during the noon service. Then decorate the board and Sichuan meeting...

I really just want to enjoy fellowship.

my disease

i think I got some church minister children disease. i do what people expected me to do (or what I think to be) way too much. Paid too much attention to people's expectation, comment, opinions and forget about who I am. That is my disease. Need to be separated from what is going on in this chaotic world. How do you find yourself in this world? Maybe I am too selfless. What is my call? How can I make the best use of myself here with the time I have here? What are my gifts? What am I good at? What is my very own calling? My very own purpose of existence?

I don't think I will know anytime soon (maybe I do, I am just hiding for it or ignoring the call), but I am going to try. First I am going to get out of what I don't like to do. Get out of this rat race. Be what you were made to be.

Jodie Foster