something about late night

there's something about late night that it's so peaceful.

i don't know. i m tire but i don't want to sleep and at the same time i feel empty.

it's a strange stage between awake and asleep and all the guards are down.

life is beautiful.

on friday, i finally heard from my old friend from high school who i lost touch with at least 1 year if not 2. anyway, since going back to LA in the summer of '07. it was strange seeing him online again. he was on yahoo talk.

on my adium contact, most people are americans, and then honkies as they refer to people from hong kong here in australia and then very few people who i befriended with in australia, mostly the basketball guys and schoolmates i work a lot with.

it's going to be a tough few days to the finish line and i am somewhat disappointed with my progress but not time to beat up myself. just have to try better tomorrow and i better get some sleep. i think my head is telling me that as well as my eyes but my mind wants to type.

janice and ben from small group are going to hk in november but janice will be leaving the day i arrive. i m thinking about leaving singapore a day early because i think 3 days is enough for singapore already. actually i think 2 days would be enough. 1 more day would be too much an singapore is not cheap. i actually don't like my flight to singapore coz it's a evening flight and i arrive there at late night... i rather get there in the late morning, like a day. i ll call tomorrow to see if i can reschedule.

i realize that i need to use an organizer. i used to use an organizer in high school, before fast internet and all the applications on internet. i think i should buy one of those smart phone. i might get the nokia e63 on 3 when i get back to Oz. but the e71 looks so much better. e63 looks cheap and it is much cheaper and has basically all i need. iphone? it's super cool but it cost heap more. it's super cool though. but i m not sure if it's my style, i m going to drop it so many times. i don't think it will last 2 years, least say one year. i need a rough phone.

i do like living here a whole lot than hk. it's more normal here and it's not too far from HK like US.

i really need a job when i come back. i m gonna try really hard getting a job then, but i have a theory that the 19 and under as well as the foreigners are getting all the cheap part-time jobs i want to get. all of them are like chinese. i don't think they are getting the australian standard pay, they are getting like 10 or 14 cash. by law i think i get at least 19 bucks per hour. it's so hard and most stores only hire girls.

centerlink would be a better option for me but man hkep haven't gotten back to me. complication.

i need to plan ahead. get down. i think it gonna require a lot of work to stay here. i need to find a job, a full-time job when i m out of uts. hopefully the job market would open up then. actually, i m thinking whether i should start to look for a full-time job when i come back, so to give a try. the only thing is fee-help. if i can work and get fee-help at the same time then it's all okay.

then, maybe i can move out. i love living at the wong's but i don't know, i feel like i cause inconvenience for them. and it's better if i can live closer to city but the expense would be a lot higher so i need at least income before even thinking about that seriously.

i don't mind doing part-time next year and try to look for a full-time job. most of my classmates are doing part-time. and the cool thing about australia is that you can do that. your job, well, most job doesn't kill you out of a life like in hong kong. people get to do all kind of stuff outside of work. that's balanced life! i would love hong kong if i get a good income, have a good motivating job, balanced life and such but that's hard in hong kong.

i want to take things slow anyway. 3 classes actually a lot, especially during crunch time. it would be good if i can do 2 classes really well. or do one class. i wish i can take more classes though, there are just so much to learn. i really envy the undergrad. most of them are technically really good. and i want to be as good technically as them, except they get about 3x the time i get.

it ll be nice if i can settle here, make it my base and then go to hong kong once so often and later on, have hong kong as like a second home. if i can earn a good stable income and do my own projects with my spare time and holiday. that would be ideal.

better to be in a job where i can do what i like.

a lot of australians take 1-2 years off after high school or uni to go backpacking or volunteer to work somewhere. pretty amazing. very different from the mentality in hong kong or even the US. and i thought i spent too much time in hong kong. well, a little, jobwise at least. i knew early on that i didn't belong there and i stuck with both of them more than i wanted to. maybe a bit too long but i think there is a timing up there.

maybe i would understand it one day looking back, and actually, i think i do. i do appreciate it even though it was tough on many levels.

tomorrow i m off to celebrate my good friend's belated birthday. he's turning actually he turned 25 already and he was my best friend in primary school. i haven't gotten anything for him so i must get up early tomorrow and scramble and then do my assignments.

ah, let's go to sleep and get some good rest!